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Post by luciddream5 on Sept 18, 2008 21:59:05 GMT -5
I don't exactly understand what you mean by adding existentialism...but I do suffer from anxiety. It's actually pretty bad...Especially when I get worked up trying to explain something or when I get around a bunch of people. My heart starts racing...I start to sweat and I start shaking like I'm cold.
Depression for me has been on again, off again, type of thing... I tend to slip into a sort of deep depression for about a month, every three years or so. Other than that, it's like here for a minute then gone for a long time.
Anxiety, however... that's never gonna leave. You can take the prescriptions like Valium and Xannax and the such, which work for many people, but in my eyes do more harm than good.
My whole philosophy on the anxiety/depression thing is for the individual to find something (not drugs) that helps them keep their mind straight. Like, for me, it's music. Playing it and enjoying it. And being social. Being around friends helps.
Have you ever talked to a psych? That also helps for some people to vent to someone who's not a "friend" or relative, that you can be 100% open with, without fear of any personal info leaking.
I had a bad trip back in june where i thought i was dead for a couple hours and my head hasnt been right since. I've always had boughts of depression but this may be the lowest i've ever gone. so yeah i feel ya. I've tried the meds but they make me feel... un-natural. guess i'll just push through it.
Post by luciddream5 on Sept 19, 2008 10:55:26 GMT -5
I'm with you Mothersky...I have had the opportunity to be prescribed to xanaxx and whatever other pills you can take for anxiety...but really I just don't like the idea of having to take them...they do seem to bring more harm than good. I even refuse to take a tylenol...I don't care how bad the headache...I'll just sleep it off if anything.
hehe, essentially yes. How the quack do you kill it?
Where do you stand with The God Question?
hah, what god? I wish I still believed in god, I would be happier not having to worry about things. It's not that I don't feel like life is worth living, or even have a problem with dying, I just really can't explain it.
Also, as far as treatment I gotta agree with you guys above, I don't even want to know because any benny they give me I don't want it. My dad gets kpins. I know I could get whatever I want but I don't want them. Addiction is no cure.
Also on that whole bad trip thing, I ate some fungus a few months back that kind of opened my eyes up to all of this and I feel like I opened alot of doors and windows that I need to figure out how to close, I formulated lots of questions and now I need the answers. I'm trying to do it again but I don't know what it will do with my brain.
I feel like a different way of thinking isn't a negative thing. To be honest I feel like my way of thinking is going to eventually help me feel better. I feel like I just need to break through something in front of me. Its like I'm on my way to some sort of truth or enlightenment. I wouldn't give my thoughts up on any drug be it seroquel to thorazine or even bennys. I could be flippin' crazy though. I feel like even when I'm trying to explain it many people don't understand it, especially my friends. I do however think that people here could be able to understand what I'm trying to get at, you know with the music and the culture I feel like it would be more common thinking here. But like I said, I could just be a headcase.
"As if that blind rage had washed me clean, rid me of hope; for the first time, in that night alive with signs and stars, I opened myself to the gentle indifference of the world. Finding it so much like myself — so like a brother, really — I felt that I had been happy and that I was happy again. For everything to be consummated, for me to feel less alone, I had only to wish that there be a large crowd of spectators the day of my execution and that they greet me with cries of hate."
Post by soundtribe_junkie on Sept 19, 2008 15:31:04 GMT -5
As above-I feel ya. I have struggled w/bi-polar since my early 20's and had many doors opened..and broke on through the other side too...sometimes to my detriment, but enough to know God is there fo' sho. I have had to do and deal as best I can. A mood stabilizer was a God-send when I was getting my M.Ed. I wouldve never made it. I have it somewhat managed, to say the least, and I have managed to keep my mind intact...heh. Music has saved my soul. Jack White too. He's def. a 'headcase' and so am I.
Post by soundtribe_junkie on Sept 19, 2008 15:54:23 GMT -5
^^^tact...dude
jack white has a good bit of advice..and lyrics can be a powerful thing
Here is something my college prof gave me many years ago, and I still have this page on my wall-
Meaning is not something you stumble across, like the answer to a riddle or the prize in a treasure hunt. Meaning is something you build into your life. You build it out of your own past, out of your affections and loyalties, out of the experience of humankind as it is passed on to you, out of your own talent and understanding, out of the things you believe in, out of the things and people you love, out of the values for which you are willing to sacrifice something. The ingredients are there. You are the only one who can put them together into that pattern that will be your life. Let it be a life that has dignity and meaning for you. If it does, then the particular balance of success or failure is of less account.
-John Gardner
This has been a truly meaningful life 'statement' for me, and influenced my life for the better.
I don't really struggle with depression or anxiety... melancholy and hopelessness rather often, but thankfully not to a chronic or severe degree, and I wouldn't consider it existential. But I just wanted to pop in and say, while it might sound awfully shallow or naive, it isn't a bad thing to examine your existence. I guess what I'm trying to say is, its brave to open those doors and windows. If happiness means floating through life without considering it, then I'd rather not be happy.
And idioteque is right- The Stranger is a beautiful existential novel, I'd try it on if I were you.
Sending some peaceful vibes your way, dasclyde.
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As above-I feel ya. I have struggled w/bi-polar since my early 20's and had many doors opened..and broke on through the other side too...sometimes to my detriment, but enough to know God is there fo' sho. I have had to do and deal as best I can. A mood stabilizer was a God-send when I was getting my M.Ed. I wouldve never made it. I have it somewhat managed, to say the least, and I have managed to keep my mind intact...heh. Music has saved my soul. Jack White too. He's def. a 'headcase' and so am I.
I'm right there with you. No matter what that other dude has to say, music can cure all that ails, at least for me. Music is my ultimate savior, my god if you will. idioteque, I think I will check out that book too, seems cool. And herecomesthesun, thanks for the vibes hehe, Its not that I don't enjoy exploring my life and thoughts, I don't really want to I guess close the doors and windows I want to go through them. I want answers and peace in my own mind. After all, "the unexamined life is not worth living."
But on the real I don't think anything any therapist will tell me is going to help. I've psychoanalyzed myself inside and out and I don't want medicine. That would be all they could give me. I suppose the down times can suck, yeah, but it makes you appreciate the up times more!
Thanks all for the peace and love, can always count on some friends on Inforoo ;D
I know a guy of 27 who had a bad trip and became another person in a sense.Over night he came to distrust his family.After about two months he slowly came back to his self. It was less than a year ago and he is fine now - but we were so worried. As far as the depression, I dealt with it once. It lasted a month or two and I actually learned a lot from it. Deep compassion and 3-D thinking to name two. Music and the Almighty should never be underestimated for their ability to heal - they keep me happy and moving forward. And dasclyde, you may wish you still believed in God - but he does believe in you. Blessings and Peace Brother!
Instead of dirt and poison, we have rather chosen to fill our hives with honey and wax; thus furnishing mankind with the two noblest of things, which are sweetness and light.
Post by bluecadet3 on Oct 17, 2008 10:26:05 GMT -5
I've been struggling with depression ever since my dad died back in July and I refuse to take any of the prescriptions they want to prescribe to me. I just keep on truckin' and hope better days are on the horizon and I never forget to embrace everybody and every experience I come across. We are all going to die eventually but if you dwell on that then you will miss out on the great gift of life. There are so many unique and wonderful things all around us and all it takes to appreciate life is to appreciate these things.
Life is like the ocean, waves go down just as often as they go up, so just ride it out until you hit another up wave. Just be weary that what goes up must come down
That's basically how I've lived my life the past two or three years and I wrote that to myself directly after a rather depressing time in my life. I didn't know what my purpose in life was, and I was worried that I wouldn't amount to anything. I was offered the usual meds from my psych, but after finding out an answer for myself I've generally been a much happier person. It was sort of a sudden realization, but the sudden portion of that statement has only recently become "sudden." It took a long time for me to come to that answer, but now looking back I realize that it was such a small part of my life in terms of time.
Sometimes opening some doors in your mind may seem frightening, but the night is always darkest before the dawn, and maybe beyond that fright is something you've always been looking for. Just some food for thought
I have anxiety that comes when I'm very stressed out or nervous. I get very sweaty and shakey and feel like I'm going to faint and I get claustrophobic. I'm hypoglycemic and fainted a few years ago and ever since then, when I'm out by myself, I'm always nervous that I'm going to faint again. And when I'm nervous it just makes it worse....it's like a mind game.
I think that music is very healing. It helped me a lot when I went through a really bad break up. I always focus on the lyrics a lot more when I'm going through bad times....and even really good times. It opens my eyes to certain things.
